lightbulb!

something just struck my mind while watching videos on youtube at midnight.

i think i'm not normal.

generally, people keep pets such as cats and dogs. the more boring ones are contented with fishes. at most, the uncommon ones we see are shrimp keepers or marine fish keepers.

but why why tell me why...

a couple of my friends & i find pleasures in keeping pets not many others own in my country. we call them exotics, but more appropriately, i think half my collection are considered deadly and dangerous.

here's my list, i'd let you, dear reader, decide how queer it is:

- congo african grey parrot

- african emperor scorpions

- mexican fireleg tarantula

- chris allen red australian inland bearded dragon

- sugar gliders

- chipmunks

& that's not including the more normal pets around the house. wheez, i think i should go ahead & apply for a permit, turning my residence into a mini-zoo!

[ no promises, but pictures coming up if it doesn't slip my mind! ]

amy says no more?

really amazing how i feel relieved right now.

its like, i finally got a heavy burden off my shoulder; not in a bad way per se, just that there's this feeling i can start living life again.

currently, this old song i dug out from my massive library is really intriguing me every time i put it on loop.

sia sia sudah

kita jalin cinta

bila hati selalu berbeda

sampai kapan lagi

'ku harus menahan

rasa kecewa di dalam dada

seandainya kita masih bersatu

tak mungkinkan menyatu

walau masih ada sisa cinta

biarkan saja berakhir sampai

di sini

tiada lagi yang 'ku harapkan

tiada lagi yang 'ku impikan

biar aku sendiri tanpa dirimu

tiada lagi kata cintaku

takkan lagi 'ku bersamamu

biar 'ku simpan semua

kenangan 'ku bersamamu

the rollercoaster ride ends here i guess.

' hey you, although the time was short, all i can say is i do cherish every single moment we shared together. =) '

oh happy day.

thinking about things from all directions since the waking of the day, finally i came to a decision, not to live life this complicated from now on.

perhaps, life should be concentrated around making myself happy, rather than worrying about so many things at a time. i guess, its time to revert to my old self, not being so responsible towards the people i do care about. well, its not in a negative way, but in a nutshell, it just brings about living life the carefree direction i used to fly with.

really, its tiring to always go against the flow or having to find out where you are, what you wanna do, or constantly letting you know of my whereabouts.

we'll let fate decide where this takes us. =)

in the meantime, carpe diem!

[ to you my dear girl, it's now time to experience what i think you wanted all along for you and me; one word, seven letters, its called FREEDOM. ]

confused.

i'm pretty much left in a state of confusion now.

sometimes, you really make me think everything's going so smoothly; & other times, you come up with the most unexpected things that breaks all my expectations, of the perfect little world.

you said that promises were meant to be broken,
i wonder if the words that you said could be shaken,
then you tell me,
that you will make no promise that you can't keep.

i think i need a guiding light; tell me...

should i give this one more try or would it be for the best of both worlds if things were left not so complicated?

81.

its been a quiet one this year.

well, at least it was what i expected (and wished for this time i guess).

ironically, the ones i expected the most from failed to deliver, & the ones i never expected anything from gave me the best.

oh baby, its a wild world. =)

[darling, you made it all seem perfect for me.]

my return.

i'm back now. glad to say, i believe the bad things are all starting to move aside, finally.

so far, i think we've got things worked out, every second now seem to be filled with stuffs making my day.

i refuse to think about how would this eventually turn out, but right now i guess its just best letting nature pave its own course ain't it?

by the way, i think i'm gonna expect new kicks! would you let me embrace you in my arms, oh my lovely nike dunk sb lo gibson?

simple life.

why can't life be just simple, having everything sailing smoothly for you?

when i just got ready to bask in the warmth of a perfect life, walking down this beautiful path on the right, all it takes are mere seconds to bring me on the untrodden road to my left.

thank you my dear, for making this night an unpleasant one for me.